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Tik…Tik…
Time is moving…
60 minutes,
another 60 minutes,
i’m waiting
for several uncertainties.

The scent reminds me of the memories
The tiny room full with my belongings
but why i feel so empty?
the space of my heart is limited
but it’s full of ur images,
with the sorrow and loneliness

The secrets are driving me crazy
n the truth that once hurt me making me drowsy
this is the last thing i would wanna know
being ignorant is a bless sometimes

the furthest distance is not the thousand miles
but the distance of the hearts.
i wish to hold the key to enter the enclosed part
to end this insecured waiting.

time is stil running,
i’m stil waiting.

Vibrating Venice

Beautiful. just beautiful. it’s one of my dream place in this world..n my dream comes true. the ppl were nice, the gelati (ice-cream) was fantastic, the pizza rolls were tempting, the Masque n Triangle + Murano Glass were amazing.
It’s not the journey but the company that matters
However, both of them are just wonderfully combined to make this venice trip memorable =) (of coz including the JOKES and SENSORED stuff that our pig brother taught us =p)
oh ya…n the guys in Venice are sooooooooo macho n ……..(utterly describable beyond words!) i was notty enuf to pose behind a guy but half way the shutter close the macho guy turned back pulak! (it’s reali malu) but he was kind enuf to pose with me n we took a nice photo =p /ngek

Romantic Rome (?)

that’s the rome we expected…aren’t we? and the story of ancient rome was legend and the roman architecture was another legend….but we’re quite disappointed with the current states of rome. the ppl…the food (i think rome ppl no need makan one…a proper restaurant is nowhere to be seen T_T), and the language is really a barrier.
"mi skuzi..para ingerisi?" 1 out of 100 of the ppl there knows english..tt makes out life harder. so we have no choice but to buy a english-italiano dictionary. it was quite useful though..keke
nevertheless, this is the first time we organise the trip ourselves..getting lost…using a longer way in fact it’s jus right in front of our eyes…finding way…READING maps…al these were quite a fresh stuff for me n we enjoy ourselves so much (despite the sizzling sunny summer hot weather!) imagine the sky in rome always blue without a single trace of clouds..

in fact i’m losing my words here…perhaps it’s too much of feeling mixing around in my mind now. i’ll try to compose it well and i’ll complete this journal =)

I was trembling.
for what reason…i dont know.
i flashed thru again…
i couldn’t believe.

for that i changed.
no longer i have grudges,
no longer i have prejudices.
as u always told me…
"dark clouds will come,
dark clouds will go"
after the gloomy rain..
the sun might be shining bright again.

ppl are born to be kind.
as i always believe.
i was overwhelmed,
i was stoned.
i can’t believe i made those whom i loved being cursed.
from that moment,
my heartbeats stop.
for 60 seconds..i stop breathing.

glass once scattered
forever shattered
eyes once blind
forever blurred.
heart once broken
forever scarred…

The Sun might shines bright thru the day,
but during the night,
it might be crying somewhere,
behind the mountain.

呃..还没想到内容..应该很好发挥的. ^^" 故事发展有待期待. 是关于一块外表很坚强, 内心却太柔弱的豆腐..

在货运的规矩上, 豆腐是不是该被列为"FRAGILE"? 然后接着必须提醒此货"小心轻放".

所以人们在移动这豆腐时, 都要特别细心, 就怕一不小心那豆腐就来个稀巴烂.但如果豆腐被过于保护, 它会被宠坏的.

但…是谁一直保护那豆腐?

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my heart beating fast
like it can’t hold anymore
i felt it aching
as if needles piercing thru it
i can’t hold the pain
but my tears ‘re pouring like rain

my mind was blank
hoping it was just a prank
there’s no soul left in my shell of body
there’s no more thoughts and thinking

perhaps all along i’ve been fooling myself
or the joke works well on me,
unrealising.
how naive i could be
looking down on the possibilities
tt could kill me softly.

i can’t do anything,
but drowning myself in words.
listening Fields of Hope,
but where can i lay my hope?
no more fake truth,
no more false hope.

I don’t want to be fooled,
yet
I…
was scared.
Of the cruelest truth:
……

Mon, Sunny+windy, 10′C-18′C
UK 9.30pm / MY 4.30am

"these r not chickenpox la…" khoo saw my leg’s bruise n exclaimed it n said we’re all young children =.=. he brought me to Ealing Hospital this morning, while cat accom me there. i was so scared, trembling slightly, praying nth serious will happen.

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me n cat went to register at the reception, but we kena marah by a woman there. then we dunno where to go but to wait khoo in front of hosp. then we headed to the "accident & emergency" wings to register.

the first doctor saw my leg, he said maybe it’s bitten by insects. but unknown. so he asked me to go to another wing called "minor injuries". we waited there for quite a long time until a nurse came n said " Y U WAIT HERE? I WAS CALLING UR NAME SO MANY TIMES!" khoo terkejut pulak n stand up but the nurse ask him to sit down again. khoo was suggesting if i hv to visit hospital tt often he might call the school to give an accommodation to me in the hosp. T_T

finally tt’s my turn. the doctor checked, but he seems dunno wat’s tt as well, so he asked another doctor to check on me. then both of them oso said those r insects bites, they suggested to cure it properly but i dunno wat they goin to do. they told me to go to another room n wait. later i saw a nurse pushing the medicine dropping stand (i dunno wat’s the proper name for it). sudenly feel so scared. then i was told tt i have to inject 2 packets of antibiotics.

khoo help me to take medicine at pharmacy, n i paid 25 pounds. i hv to go back hosp again on friday, so paiseh to bother khoo again since it’s Easter holiday. the doctor told me, "if i din c u on friday, i’ll kill myself".

Ti gong, Guan yin, tua bek gong, xian shi bo bi……*pray*

How could i catch a heart?
i don’t know.
i don’t know how to.
How could i hold someone?
Seems belong to me,
but somehow i wondered.
How could i always stay in the place?
Where nothing is able to move me away,
Where nothing is able to take my place.

I couldn’t catch a heart,
but i try to make the heart mine,
showered with the love and cares.
I couldn’t hold someone,
but i try to grasp it tightly,
despite the circumstances and obstacles.
I couldn’t stay always in the place,
but i try…to be strong,
n prove it as time goes by.

Sun 1/4 sunny, 1′14′C
UK 6.15pm / MY 1.15am

i like chicken alot. chicken sausage, chicken ham, chicken burger, chicken chop, chicken steak, chicken wrap, chicken cooked in wine, beggar chicken, fried chicken, steam chicken, chicken soup……….

n now, chickenpox found me. at this place, in this time, where i found nth familiar with.

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counted today, i reached london jus for 13 days, around 2 weeks. but all-it-can-happens happened on me. some baka said these are all ‘new experience’ tt not everyone can experience it =.=" since i pengsan, then my skin problem made my fingers now like demon’s fingers (or it just suits me?). few days ago, i found one fishy spot on my hand, but i dunno wats tt. i accidentally pressed it n some watery stuff came out (bluek….~) the nex day, another same spot i found on my leg. right at the place we hv to use a lot of mechanism when walking…tt made me so painful while walking (n walking a lot is a daily must here).

i tried to consult pharmacist, but they jus ask me to put antiseptic cream. they said only 1-2 spots need no worries, unless 10-15 spots came out at once then only need to consult doctors. alrite, jus as the pharmacist wished (being sarcastic), right at tt nite, i found 10-15 spots on both of my legs. how misfortune it can be. i feel so scared coz i dunno wat r those things. until cat n kristine (my 2nd mummy) saw, they suspected it could be chickenpox. so they said jus take a rest n see whether more spots comin out or not.

so this morning, the red spots last nite turn yellowish n consist liquid inside. T_T omg. the worst thing is u feel itchy but cannot scratch. just like when ppl slapped u u cannot say "Ouch!"
and in this place where we hardly familiar with, there’s so much food i can’t eat n so much things i can’t do. luckily i got a mummy here who cook for me, boil herbal tea for me, hug me when i feel cold. reli thx to her a lotzzzzzzz. n got a nice boss here, who is oso known as God of Direction, lead me around as a big bro, take off his jacket for me when i can’t tahan the wind (ai seh…~), n a cat who come visit me n accom me, also cooked maggie for me. thx, thx n thx.

Reli glad tt i hv so many fren around me in this far. n thx baka for his ultimate jokes tt cheer my day up, where news of my cousin passed away surprised me while i’m far away from my hometown. cousin, rest in peace. i always said this, but it always applicable n i need to accept facts.

Life is Unpredictable, Unchangable.
Yesterday is history, Tomoro is mystery, Today is always a gift.
Be contented, enjoy life as much as we could,
Spend lotz time with family n frens,
Life could be as full as this.

Frenz, do pray for me okay? here dun hv temple i can only pray in my heart. wish me get well soon.

I’m sorry chicken = =

Thu 22/3, snow + rain, 1′C-4′C
UK 9.41pm / MY 5.41am

This is my 4th day in London. i cld only start my journal today, coz a lot of happenings in these very short of 4 days. i became so ‘famous’ since my 1st day here =.=" i don’t need to introduce myself, coz ppl will noe. " oh…sansan…the one who pengsan on the first day..!"

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19th march, we arrived as a group in Heathrow airport, London. we were brought to our accomodation in Brentford. the weather was a mass difference from msia, as the temperature on our first night is only 4 deg celcius. the flight was a nightmare…as the activities for us in the plane is jus sleep, eat, n listen songs for 13 hours. The hostel here is just nice n comfortable.
Having girls’ probs could be disastrous (so my title written ‘Red’). n becoz of tt ‘girls prob’, i could hardly sleep at 1st night here. ended up to wake up at 4am, and suffered alone here. this is the time i miss home most. until the next morning, i stil feeling unwell but it reached the time to get ready to go campus for orientation activities.
   Unfortunately, i started seeing things blurly…n slowly..black out, unconciously.
   Fortunately, there were ppl around me to help me out…i rmb two guys carried me  back to my room where later on i slowly recovered my conciousness. some help me to call the reception and uni staff (amol steven etc..). so in 10mins, i was told tt the ambulance had arrived n the rescue team was on their way to my room. i was awake, but feeling weak. they checked my pulse, my body temperature and blood. everyth was okay. so they advised me to rest alot, and get myself used to the weather here. thus, i missed the 1st day activity and ended up sleeping WHOLE day until cindy, joe and sherina brought me food at night when they come back.
i felt so bad to trouble everyone around me…sherina stay all the time by my side and accompanied me when the 999 team arrived; christine provided me her panadol supply n hot water; cindy was the most unlucky where i fainted on her pity skinny body =( n everybody who helped me a lot and care for me. i’m truly appreciated…thx a lot frens.

S’pore Changi Airport —> HongKong Int. Airport —> Tsim Sha Tsui —> ShenZhen —>Disneyland —> Kowloon —> HKIA —> SIA

This trip was my first time to fly on Singapore Airline…which always heard to be one of the best airlines. Indeed, 4 hours flight on SQ was easily passed with the computer screen in front of the seat.

    The Concrete Jungle

On the way to the town, there were only skyscrapers along both sides of the highway. The condos were all at least 30-floors high. The weather was just nice around 15-20 deg celcius while the cooling breeze approached once in a while.

    Tsim Sha Tsui - The exTreme bz Town

We were sent to the hotel in TsimShaTsui to check in in advance. I was hope to get the room with fabulous view out of the windows as the room was 21st-flr . However my wish couldn’t be granted. So i just give up and try to walk around the streets nearby the hotel. Most of the shops were closed as it was the 2nd day of CNY. Feeling hungry, we found a small restaurant. OMG! just a simple meal as dumpling noodle soup cost HKD30.00 per bowl (about RM15.00). And the price of the drinks were even unbelievable. Can u imagine spending RM6.00 for a small cup of milk tea  (the cheapest drink) in a road-side restaurant?
    After the meal we heard there going to have firework show at the parade somewhere around, so we decided to walk there. U don’t have to worry about losing yourself there coz there were thousands and millions of people walking the same way to the parade. The crowd was jus simply out of describation. But no matter how we managed to squeeze in n placed ourselves for a restricted-view site. The firework was amazing and i finally understand why that worth for all the HK ppl to squeeze there for a 20 mins show.

    Typical Tour-Schedule =.=

As usual if u follow a tour, they will bring u to those "tourist attraction" (where all the products sold actually brings commission to the tour guide) like chinese medicine shops and jewellery factory. After experiencing so much in China before, we simply looked around and just avoid ourselves to have "eye-contact" with the promoters there. Coz if u spent more than 5 seconds staring at any product there, the promoter sure approached u and persuaded u and even followed u. And to know that their skill of promoting is probably the best in the world =.=""

    ShenZhen - walk walk and walk

We took the MTR (Mass Transit Railway) to ShenZhen from TsimShaTsui. ShenZhen is a well-developed town of China which attached closely to HK. The last station of the train was actually the immigration of China. The journey was extremely tiring as we had to drag the luggage all the way no matter ascending the stairs, descending the stairs, cross the skybridge, cross the road, Q up in immigration….What i can conclude is never go ShenZhen again if having the chance to go HK next time.
    The hotel there was a tragedy. and they called it a 3 star hotel. @@" The room was tiny, the toilet’s tiles was cracked, the kettle was rusty, the lights of the toilet was dim, the ceiling was on ‘hole’…. and i hardly believed i could survive myself 2 nights there. Thanks to the tiring journey in ShenZhen and made me just lay myself down on the bed without really care much how the room look like.

    Travel around the world without visas!

We went to the Window of the World in ShenZhen the next morning. That was a place where you can find all the wonders of the world scaled down in there. Eiffel Tower, London Bridge, Angkor Wat, Fuji Mountain, Pyramids, Great Wall China…etc. It was worth paying HKD 240.00 per person but there was 1 thing i keep wondering. In the SouthEastAsia area, even the small statue of lion representing Singapore was laid there. But the landmark of Malaysia was nowhere to be seen. Isn’t it that the Twin Tower was so famous? or KL tower? Long-house of Sarawak? Maybe this is the time to really think about it.
    Next to the Window of the World there was an ordinary-looking hotel. Nevertheless, it was the best hotel in ShenZhen. not the size of it. not the attracting exterior of it. We were told that the lifts in there could actually reach EVERY ROOMS. not only every floor. !!!
    After travelling around the world, we were taken to the Scaled Down China, where once again they scaled down all the landmarks or representing place of interest all around China. Pity that our legs can’t walk anymore…so we slowly walked without having purpose, until the stage show began.
    That show was the best ever i’ve watched…the stage lightings and effect was incredible. And all the dancers were all well known dancers in their country where they’ve been performed in Europe as well.

    Disneyland!

How we get to ShenZhen, so that’s how we get back to HK. (including the dragging luggages part =.=) that’s was early in the morning but the train already so crowded. The destination today was Disneyland (although it’s the smallest Disneyland). I thought i could see the castle even tt was stil far away but i can’t. so imagine how small it is. I don’t wanna spend 1 hour queuing up for the roller coaster and spend only 3 mins on it so i rather took my lil sis to take photos around. Still, the numbers of people was still scary. UNfortunately, the rains drop ruthlessly. We’re not smart enuf to bring raincoat or umbrella like other ppl. but there were still people who don’t care of the rain and continue their journey. So we find a shelter n hide there for quite a moment. And this is the best selling time for the souvenir shop as people rushed in there for sheltering purpose but couldn’t take their eyes off of the souvenirs.
    It was quite an exciting experience though…for me who never been to Disneyland. So waving goodbye to Mickey and his friends, we headed back to HK town.

    Kowloon - shopping heaven

Kowloon is the shopping heaven for me and my mum, but probably the hell for my dad ( LOL!). Right in front of the hotel we stayed in Canton Road there were uncountable shops and shopping malls. While along Canton Road we didn’t enter any of the shops coz the prices of LV, Prada, D&G, Dior…… Well, so we just pretend not to see the people Queuing up to enter LV.

    Unforgettable Flight Experience

The flight back to Singapore was still a SQ plane. Settled down myself on the seat, and i start to look for movie to watch. Not too long after that, a big-sized caucasian old man seems approaching and his seat was right in front of mine. A stewardess kindly asked for his boarding pass so that she could make sure that that was his seat but suddenly this old man shouted so loudly to the stewardess.
"How many times you have to check on my boarding pass?! Before i board u check, when i enter u check and now u still wanna check?! I don’t care ur bloody rules and u bloody people…and bloody @#$%….."
He immidiately became the focus there. The stewardess still remained her smile and explained nicely to him but he still keep uttering "bloody" in every of his sentence. So eventually he settled down. "PUFF!" he threw his butt so hard onto the seat until my orange juice splashed. OMG what the…. Lucky it din splashed on my cloths. The uncle beside me was so pissed that i actually keep telling him it was okay.
30 mins after that, the stewardesses were giving out the foods. And I din thought of this food-giving thingy could actually "provoked" this old man.
    "Are u trying to wake me up?!! Do ya know that your food delivery has actually woke me up?"
    "sorry sir…so would u like have a meal?"
    "NO! I just wanna let u know that your action has already woke me up!"
OMG…..this unreasonale old man. i can see all the people were shaking their head and sighed. When i was enjoying my movie while eating the fish fillet with potato, "PUFF!!" Again! My drink splashed on my food. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!I almost couldn’t stand anymore but i dun wanna make a fuss. Until i cooled myself down with the dessert of Haagen-Daaz ice-cream.

Back in Singapore…soon the air was so sticky and hot compared to HK. It was quite an experiece to look around HK, the Oriental Pearl. The architecture there was also an eye-opener for me but too bad following a tour i couldn’t get to see the HongKong-Shanghai Bank by Norman Foster. Except for the last part of the journey on flight, i think this HK trip will still be memorable.